Letting Go and Letting God.....

"If you really want to make God Laugh, plan your life" -Mother Theresa

Monday, April 4, 2011

A New Day, A New Time- A Beginning

I have a wonderful life and a wonderful family. I am so appreciative of them. Yes, I have my moments. My moments of frustration and well, exhaustion.... and during those moments I surely don't appear appreciative- but I am. I know in my heart, even during those moments, that my life is pretty darn amazing- everything I always wanted. My dreams come true:) I have an amazing husband- who is truly a good person- a stand-up guy, a gentleman, a great Dad, a wonderful friend to many and a man of extreme Faith. An inspiration. And my girls, well I am so proud of them. They certainly are not perfect- but wow, to watch them grow and learn and experience life- to watch them figure life out and handle life lessons- that is truly a gift- and indescribable privilege that I get to be a part of- WOW. There is a few things I am disappointed in myself for (quite a few) but right now, I'm kicking myself, yet again- for not writing the experiences of our life down- for not keeping it all close to my heart. I want my girls to be able to look back and know the details, to know my thoughts during them, to see their lives as truly a masterpiece..... Soooooo- here we go. I just read a blog post from someone who use a website to turn their blog into a book. I've heard of these before- but now, I have one saved in my favorites.... Just waiting for me to do something about this disappointment- waiting for me to record our wonderful family memories so they can be treasured forever. So this is the beginning.....

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Plate Wall

The work here is finally done! Actually it has been for quite awhile, I guess I have just got caught up in Life and haven't posted in quite some time. I guess the next post should be the updated pictures of all the repairs... um, I'll get right on that:)

In the meantime I've been thinking about accessorizing all my new spaces. I have gone back and forth on the dining room wall. I have thought about doing several small things, shelves, a big piece of art or possible an old door. I finally deciding after seeing many good blog posts that I wanted to hang white plates in there.

I had several of the white plates to begin with, but then I hit the jackpot while stopping in at one of my favorite thrift stores last week. I bought an entire box of mix match ironstone for $1.50- what a bargain! I've always kept my eyes open for ironstone- so I was thrilled when I found so many pieces in one location and for such a great deal!! happy times:)

OK- so I started with butcher paper taped up on the wall. I decided to use a template to avoid extra nail holes. Since all the new paint jobs I've been having a hard time putting holes in my pretty new walls!

I then marked the middle and also put a mark at the highest point I would want a plate and the lowest point....

Then I took down the paper and put it on the floor and began arranging the plates and platters in the order and design I wished.

After I was done with that I turned over the plates and traced them in the spots I had chosen. I primarily did this by eye- I didn't do much measuring....

Once that was finished I took paperclips, reshaped them and hot glued them on the back of the plates to make hooks. I used ribbon for some of the bigger platters - so I wouldn't have to use 2 paperclips and measure for two nails- that could get tricky.
Once they all had hooks and the glue dried, I measured where the nail would need to be and marked each plate tracing with a dot.
Then I put the paper back on the wall and put a hole through the paper (slightly hammering in a nail) where a nail would need to be. I then took off the paper and hammered nails in all the holes. Then I hung the plates, using the template as a guide....
Here is how it turned out!

I really like it! I hope to add some plates as time continues on... Hopefully I will find some of varying shapes and sizes..... Hope you enjoyed the tute:)

Stay tuned for some more accessorizing posts!

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

The First Day

Once again, it was the first day.... Oh, I remember those times- it was really exciting and it seems to be for my little ones too. And this year was special. Princess started Kindergarten. We agonized over starting her- she is young- just turned 5 in August..... But I can't imagine what else she would be doing this year otherwise. She was certainly ready, but Mom wasn't quite prepared. To have only 1 with me- strange, sad.... It has been 8 years since monkey was born that I remember only having 1..... Even though we got everything ready and went to open house, it didn't quite sink in until that day. She was MOST excited about getting on the bus with her sissies....

There is always time to be silly:)

So can you believe Diva is a 5th grader?? Seriously, time flies! She is so grown up, so responsible, so independent. And she got up Early to DO.HER.HAIR.... what? I can't believe this is happening:)

Princess's official first day of school ever portrait.... This will be remembered Forever!

My pretties together!!!!!!!!

And Monkey is in Third grade this year. She got her hair cut short the week before school started, and she looks so much older.... Of course in this photo you just see her funky personality- she did her hair herself.....

Well another year...... I'm sure this year will fly too- lets remember to enjoy each passing day:)

Monday, September 13, 2010

ut oh, oh no

uhhhh man- that stinks! literally.... We walked in the door after a 5 day vacation to my parents' house in the beginning of August to the most horrible odor. I was thinking, "did I leave wet dirty rags out" but I would've had to leave 100 of those out to get that odor.... Think again.... yep, a toilet on the second floor was clogged and ran the entire 5 days. Y.U.C.K. The water flooded our master bathroom, bedroom and hall on the second floor.... It felt like we were walking through a swamp when we first discovered it...

In fact it went through the house the entire way to the basement. It leaked onto our tv, dvd player and cable box.....

This is the main level ceiling - in the formal living room. It effected 2 walls and the ceiling. The pipe runs across the ceiling. So one of the walls was in the front of the room with our bump out window and the other was the back wall, opposite....

This is another picture of the basement....

So after trying to clean it up ourselves..... I think we were in shock... We finally called the insurance company. They sent in a restoration company. They started ripping out walls and floors and ceilings.... I started crying.... My house was being ripped apart! They set up huge dehumidifiers and fans that were VERY loud- but 2 1/2 days later it was dry! This is what we were left with....

They gutted the master bath- yes, this is my vanity in my bedroom....

Initially only walls and ceiling were removed from the basement. They ripped out most of the padding under the carpet and put dryers under the carpet to dry it with the hope of drying and re-installing it. That effort failed so now the carpet down there will be replaced as well.
It has been a month since these pictures were taken. I'd like to have after pictures for you, but we aren't even close. Though I can say that the smell is gone. Thank goodness:) We have had the drywall on the ceilings and walls replaced but that is as far as we've gotten.
The good things- well, my new beautiful kitchen and central hub for the family was not touched, and none of the kids' bedrooms were effected. So thankfully we can still function as a family. However, we are living in a mess- things are piled up everywhere. And we are walking around on plywood floors.....
So when we first discovered it.... I honestly was in shock and trying to ignore it when we first walked in. I just unpacked the kids and didn't even walk around to access the damage. Hubs was walking around though and I could feel him getting more and more upset. He walked outside to gather more luggage from the overfilled van and I followed him. Just as I walked out, he was standing there with his hands full and a bird crapped right on him- funny now, but I didn't dare laugh then- anyway he was so upset, he said "seriously, could something more go wrong, please, come on." I stopped, hugged him (bird poo and all) and said we are blessed, this is nothing, it could be so much worse. Thank God we have a house, and that we all came home safe, and that everyone is healthy. At that point we put it into perspective. We are a team and well will survive. We were upset but there is a silver lining, more on that to come......

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Garden Hunting

Well, when little girls want to go hunting- they head to the garden:) They were in search of some butterfly's. This was the last weekend before school started. It was so much fun to see them working together towards a common goal. In fact this summer was a great one! We did sooooo much. Lots of fun camps and art classes and visits to the library. But somehow in there it seems we had lots of family times too......

They got one! And they made so many memories this summer. We made a list of the things we wanted to do and had it hanging in the kitchen. We accomplished most of the things on that list. Some of the things were: sleeping out in the yard, hiking, a big family camping trip, biking, and visiting many parks and fun areas right around our house.

I think I enjoyed this summer more than any other summer we have ever had. I felt like it flew by but in a good way. Not because I didn't get to do the things I wanted, but just because we were having so much fun that I lost track of time!

Oh, and did I mention. We spent a lot of time in the garden this year. It was beautiful! and we are still enjoying some of the fruits of our labor.... tomatoes, flowers, sweet potatoes, jalapenos, they are still coming....
This summer, I noticed something more..... My girls are growing up, my girls are good sweet fun girls that I truly enjoy being around. I know, of course I think that, they are my girls- right? well, I can be honest- there are times during motherhood that you don't enjoy it- that you are tired and frustrated and feeling like a slave and you say things like I enjoy it cause you think you should.... but honestly, I really really really enjoyed motherhood and my girls and our family this summer. Thank you God.

Monday, August 23, 2010


I can't believe I have left everyone hanging for so long- lol...... We completed this project in June. Well the granite was installed in late April but the island top was not complete until June. These pictures are right after installation so there are still tools and supplies laying around and not a single accessory. Geez, I'd like to take some pictures right now- but its a MESS:)

We came home from a vacation 2 weeks ago to a MESS. Our 2nd Floor Master Bedroom toilet overflowed and ran all the W.H.O.L.E. time!!! So it destroyed the bathroom, bedroom, hall, formal living room on the main level and then down to the basement family room and guest room- Yuck! We have since had walls, celilings and floors ripped out, but not a single thing replaced yet..... (more on that soon..) We are living in half a house and things from the destroyed rooms are piled up in the usable rooms so everything is a huge Mess!! I am remaining positive - I'm Getting a mini house Remodel:) But seriously, lesson learned, turn off you water when you leave your casa.....

So here are a few pictures of the kitchen that include the tumbled tile backsplash that my husband installed, the granite countertops, and then the HIGHLIGHT, our gorgeous 2inch thick Maple island that my hubsband made and installed. He also used old ballisters from an old building my parents recently sold for the legs- what would I do without him???

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

A Grown-up View

Every now and again I realize that I am a very deep thinker.... I know, if you know me you are thinking, "really, you are just now figuring this out?" well not exactly, but I seem to forget and then get reminded over and over. Now, sometimes this is good and often its troubling- but every now and again I'm challenged and realize that what I thought was basic knowledge (mainly cause I have thought of it so many times) really isn't after all. That many other people have never happened about a particular conclusion that I have come to through my many deep thinking moments..... and subsequently I am essentially alone in my deep thoughts (I know I torture myself) Further, I realize that there are many other deep thinkers out there. And many who think of things that I would've never even thought of and I learn from those people everyday. Of course, there are those that don't think much at all and from those people- I learn too- I learn to chill, relax, smell the roses, and enjoy the moment.....

Why do I think so much? Well I wish I knew and most of time I wish I would stop (and so does my husband:)). But for now I am thinking of a greater purpose for my thoughts. Maybe if I share them it will help others think. Help others to consider things they wouldn't have otherwise. Or at least offer a different perspective. And most certainly stir thoughts, conversations (and knowing me controversy)!

Ok, so where am I headed here?? Quit rambling already!

I have come to the conclusion through much debate in my head that religion in an acquired taste and a journey. I know I didn't originate this thought but I have worked it over and over in my head since there are so many sides to this discussion. Is religion real? Is Christianity a hoax? Are we all hypocrites? Well, I don't claim to be a theologist but there is a few areas of this I can conclude on..... Through the stages of our life, upon our journey we must go through several phases of Christianity in order to fully appreciate it.

If we were fortunate enough to be exposed to some sort of Christian upbringing I would venture we start off feeling like God is Amazing and Loving and WOW!! Then we hit our tweens and journey through questions and frustrations viewing our faith. And for some, we never get past this..... Just as teens do, we buck authority and the same goes with religion. We begin to shake our fist in the face of the holy spirit and say, "you can't tell me what to do!" We view God as a ruler who wants to control us and ruin our fun. And if we continue that view into adulthood we often start to think religion is a made up venture created to control us.

However, if we let go of our notions created in teen hood and begin to have full circle thoughts we can lead to the conclusion that God loves us like a Father. If we let go of the bitterness of control and stop bucking authority we can open our hearts to see that this is all Love. If my 4 year old daughter wants to play in the street, I set boundaries and I say NO. Why? Is it because I want to ruin her fun? Cause lets face it, playing in the street when you are a kid is fun! Is because I want to control her? Hardly, since I realized the second day of my first born's life that I wasn't going to be able to control anything!! I do this simply because I Love her. I want to protect her. I want to save her from experiencing as much pain as possible. At four I can explain that being hit by a car is a bad thing but she doesn't quite get that and if she does she forgets as soon as she thinks of how fun it would be to ride her bike down the middle of the road. So I set rules, that if she follows will make it simple for her to avoid the pain of being hit by a car. Do I hate her if she ignores the rules? Do I damn her to Hell? of course not- but I am so sad when she gets hurt- and when she hurts, I hurt... God feels the same way.

In Christianity this is a full circle moment. I no longer view God's laws as made up rules created to ruin my fun, or control me or scare me to death. I now see them as a Gift. God does not want pain. He loves us like a Father- like I love my daughters. He wants to protect me. Imagine a world with no pain..... No molestation, no rape, no drug overdoses, no divorce, no adultery, no murder, no abondonment, no hatred- isn't it a lovely thought? Well that it God's world.

For a minute let go of all other notions and entertain the thought that His rules were meant to protect. Meant to heal. Meant to Love. He set simple boundaries because He loves us. They are a basic set of standards to Protect us. I mean if He wanted Control why in the world did He give us Free Will? Again, I am beginning to allow my oldest child more independence because I Love her, trust her and want her to choose to have a happy life. I want to have a relationship with her based on trust and guidance and above all Love....

Allow those who deserve to love us do just that!

Now, one step further. To be Christian or to believe in Christ is not a statement of perfection. This does not mean that we follow everything perfectly. We are not perfect- hence the need for Christianity:) and the desire for a relationship with Christ- Acceptance, Forgiveness and above all Love! (I have a feeling I will be exploring this notion deeper in the near future)

A quote from the Grotto at Mount St. Mary's in Emmitsburg, MD is the opening picture to my post.

Peace to All!